Living the Curse

Some of us didn’t have anyone to teach us the REAL important things in life.

Like how to spot toxic people, avoid red flags, and not sacrifice our personalities in a relationship. We weren’t taught how and when to abandon a relationship-when it’s time to walk away from things that don’t serve us. We weren’t taught how to avoid being used- or even how to know if we're being used: how to invest, or that the truth is, working the average 8-hour shift can’t make us rich.

We weren’t taught how to deal with heartache, how to cope with loss, or how to communicate effectively. We weren’t taught that the closest to us are often the ones who hurt us the most, that strangers would sometimes support us more than people we’ve known our entire lives.

We weren’t taught that love is not just a word but a person’s ability to commit.

Most of us were pushed into this warzone called life- unprepared, unprotected, and completely unaware of the stampede of reality that would inevitably descend upon us.

We lived the curse of many generations before we became wise enough to break generational curses. Some of us became so entangled in the roaring waves that we never seemed to catch our footing long enough to fight our way out of the storm.

Lost In The Abyss Of Rock Bottom

It took hitting rock bottom for me to realize I needed to build my own guidebook through life- one based on the many patterns I had encountered.

Sometimes we are shown things and refuse to believe what we see. We doubt, we make excuses. We paint a thousand colors over an old piece of art, convincing ourselves it’s something entirely different. And that… that brings more pain than joy, more confusion than clarity, more questions than answers.

I was angry at myself- I looked at the people who let me down time and time again- I should’ve known. The red flags were flying high. How foolish of me to convince myself it was something else.

But I understand now- it wasn’t foolishness. It was the absence of teaching, the absence of knowing how to love myself first. I opted to love others in place of loving myself. It became a competition against myself: how much more I could do for them and how much less I could do for me, just to prove I could love you more than I loved me.

That caused its own storm. Instead of receiving love in return, I was met with disrespect. And now, I know why- because if I hold no value for myself, nobody will hold value for me. I set the standard for how I was treated... I wasn’t taught that.

The New Chapter

I feel a sense of power now. This comes from knowing who I am, and now, I stand in my truth- unshaken and immovable.

I've lived the curse and now I know how to break the curse.

After the transformation., the “after” is a much more grounded Samantha: unshaken, unmoved, unphased by all the negativity thrown at me.

There is a silent joy in me that radiates within and around me… a pleasantness that can be felt, but a powerful energy that surrounds me. It is certainty- It is confidence- It is the unshaken sense of self.

A Letter to the Old Me

If I could write a letter to the unhealed, self-doubtful, insecure Samantha, I'd gracefully say:

While you question yourself, somebody out there is sure of you.

To every one person who dislikes you, a thousand more will love you.

While you feel worthless, the knowledge you hold can transform somebody’s entire existence.

While you sit in the shame of your own past mishaps and mistakes, your future is laden with courage and confidence.

You stand alone...get used to it; because in the future you will stand alone many times. Stand strong!

You will be afraid… but never let fear cripple you. Do whatever you must do — and do it afraid.

The Curse Ends With Me

You know… we weren’t even taught how to set boundaries.
How to refuse the bare minimum.

We weren’t taught that the way we value ourselves is the way the world will value us.

We weren’t taught how to truly value ourselves- not by the clothes or the shoes we wear, but by how we respect and love ourselves. By how we hold ourselves accountable.

No one told us that self-love is the root of everything. That everything- the peace, the joy, the healthy relationships, the success- unfolds after self-love.

So I must let the curse end with me.

Because now, with my knowledge and my guidance, my children have a head start in life. They are wiser than I was at their age. They are equipped with tools I never had — tools to protect themselves, to navigate life’s battles, and to fight wars I never should have had to fight alone.

And I pray they use those tools. I pray they remember the blueprint.

I have lived the curse… so that they won’t have to.

Everything I have learned- the hard lessons, the painful truths, the moments that brought me to my knees- they cannot end with just my survival.

My children deserve better. They deserve the gift of knowledge, of awareness, of early wisdom. They deserve to know that they are enough, that they are worthy, and that their value is never tied to how much of themselves they give away to be loved.

I raise them to understand boundaries, to trust their intuition, to recognize when something feels off and to walk away without guilt or fear.

I must teach them that their worth is non-negotiable. Show them that protecting their energy is not selfish; it is survival.

I want them to know that love is not measured in sacrifice or silence, but in respect, commitment, and honesty.

I want them to see me- not the broken version of me, but the healed one- and understand that healing is not a destination but a journey. That strength is quiet. That true power is in knowing who you are and standing firm in it.

I must teach them that life will hand them storms, but they will have the tools to survive them. That they do not have to live decades repeating cycles that were never theirs to carry. They are allowed to demand more, to expect more, and to give themselves more.

Because if I do anything right in this life, it will be to make sure they are better prepared for the war that is life. And if my scars, my stories, my experiences can light their path, then every painful moment I endured was not in vain.

THE CURSE ENDS WITH ME.

Now We Hold the Torch

Now we- the survivors- hold the torch.

We have not only the opportunity but the blueprint to create better lives for ourselves and, more importantly, for the generations to come.

We are armed with the greatest weapons of all to shatter shackles and break curses: truth and experience.

We lived the curse.

We have the scars.

We got here by losing battles.

We lost ourselves to find ourselves — and that is both a blessing and a curse.

When we know better, we must do better...And this is a call to courage, a guide through the storms, and a reminder that we are capable of breaking cycles, shattering limitations, and building a future that honors ourselves and the generations to come.

• I break every generational curse placed upon me.

• I AM the designer of my own life.

• I AM the ancestor that created a new path.

• MY strength will empower the generations that follow me.

• I AM the blueprint of my legacy; my courage will inspire generations.

• The curse ends with me.

• I create a beautiful life for myself and for generations to come.

• I illuminate the path for those who come after me.

When you doubt yourself, your capabilities, or lose sight of your why… remember who you are.

You are the culmination of every lesson, every struggle, every moment that tried to break you- and yet here you are, standing stronger than before.
Whenever fear, uncertainty, or self-doubt whispers in your ear, speak truth to yourself.
Remind yourself of your power, your resilience, and your ability to create a life of purpose and intention.

What you weren’t taught, you will teach. The knowledge, the wisdom, the courage- it’s in your hands now. You hold the power of transformation.

You are resilient. You are capable. You are stronger than the storms you’ve weathered and wiser than the battles you’ve lost.

Begin by talking nice to yourself. Speak kindly, honor your journey, and recognize your worth.

Love yourself fiercely, guide others intentionally, and know that every step you take creates a legacy of strength, courage, and freedom.

With love,
Samantha❣️